Looking into mirror,
and what do I see…
a fat, stupid, dumb fuck…
when that not the real me…
Touch the fat lumps on me…
on my face, that not actual there…
Tear rush in cheek,
as I clutch the chummy stomach…
Hear the little girl giggles
as she call ever name in the book…
Slut, Ugly, Retard, gay, bitch…
I burn myself to make the pain
go away,
But thing is, I can’t hurt myself,
And Lie, to say it escape…
I love, life and family…
And this is what I want it to be…
Not have a boyfriend at the end the line…
But just to have me, myself, and I…
Am pretty damn sexy and cute…
I tell myself that, and I know that am just fine…